My attitude to Weight Watchers this month has been, in
common with most of the rest of the year, that I could not give a flying
firkin.
I have not weighed myself – I am guessing it is relatively
steady (although after a weekend of D’s birthday indulgence it may be creeping
in the wrong direction). I have not been
eating madly off piste, gorging on cheese and buns and scoffing multi course dinners
every evening. On the contrary, it has
been three meals a day with fruit in between for the most part, and my
rediscovered love of cheap, low cal hot chocolate has more than satisfied any
sweet cravings in the evening.
"Diet talk bores me." |
This is not enough to make a discernible difference.
And, here’s the rub, some days I just don’t care that much.
This is actually a good thing. I am more at peace with my body and my
appearance than I ever was when I was (briefly) thin. I don’t love it – but neither does it cause
me to writhe around in horror. It does
not impact on my ability to be a good person, a loving friend and family member
and to do my job and earn a respectable living.
It is not a moral issue. If
people choose to make judgements based on appearances then I cannot stop them
but neither should I take any notice – it is their issue, not mine.
Here’s the other rub though.
I know that I would look better a few stone lighter – and I’m still
girlie enough to be a little bit vain.
I also know (and this is more important) that I want to be
as healthy as possible for as long as possible.
And although I have dodged the bullet so far, at some point, things are
going to go wrong unless I improve my overall health and fitness levels.
So that’s where we are.
I’m not going to go down the road of thinking about alternative diet
plans because I suspect that way madness lies – if I stick to what I know then
it will work. It’s the sticking to it
that is the problem. It’s so nice to be
able to cook and eat without having to think
about it all the time – beyond the pleasurable ponderings that surround “What
shall we have for dinner?”
I’m not quite sure what the answer is at the moment. I guess, what I’m saying is: watch this
space. But you might be watching it for
a while, so grab a cup of tea to keep you going.
This has always been a stumbling block for me in losing weight, I just don't care enough to want to change, so I am totally with you.
ReplyDeleteI am, however, turning 40 next year, hence my current crisis and attempt at getting healthy. I am following a clean eating plan (I refuse to say diet) and exercising 3 times a week and I'll say I am feeling a hell of a lot better. I am not worrying about calories, syns or points and it's liberating. I have lost some weight, but the fact that I am actually just feeling better (physically & mentally) than I have in a long time is far more of a benefit to me than any number on the scales.