Saturday, 2 August 2014

The sound of silence

Greetings, friends!  My, but this little corner of the internet has been a bit quiet lately, hasn't it?  I wish I had a good excuse for you - I've got more stuff to put up from Barcelona, and a couple of real little London gems from last weekend but the truth is...well, I've had a bit of the ennui.

I, I pretty much know that this is work related.  I try to be suitably vague about my job on here because a) it is quite horrendously dull and b) I am ever so slightly paranoid (someone in our building got sacked on the spot for making a comment about the department on Twitter while in the office).  So excuse me for not providing details.  Suffice to say, I am conscious of how lucky I am to not only be employed but also reasonably well remunerated but oh, it grinds me down.  It is just not really the right job for me.  And when you spend two thirds of your life doing something that doesn't make you particularly happy then it impacts on the remaining third - in my case, misery makes me rather inert.

So, why not pack it in and do something else?  Well, the main reason is that I have The Fear: I don't want to be unemployed and I don't really want to take a significant pay cut unless it is for a very good reason.  I also don't honestly know what the right job is.  I have ideas and inklings but no stone cold certainty.  I'm not desperately motivated by money - I just want something that makes me excited to get out of bed in the morning.  Am I expecting too much?  Do the majority of people just drag themselves through the daily grind and then concentrate on making sure that their leisure time makes up for the drudgery of the office?  That doesn't sound like the right way to live to me.

Anyway, I've been having a bit of a sulk and that is why I haven't been a particularly good blogger in recent weeks and is also probably why my WW campaign has stalled a bit.  We are going to Scotland for ten days next week so my impetus to get going again is rather low - but hopefully a break will be just what I need to clear my head, gain a bit of perspective and boost my mojo.                                                                      


  1. Sorry to hear about your job woes. I don't think it's unreasonable to want a job where you don't dread getting out of bed in the morning. Maybe you could start looking regularly at job ads - no pressure to leave or find a new job, but you never know when you might see something perfect advertised that you want to apply for or that gives you a sudden burst of inspiration as to a new direction. Sorry about the slowing of the weight loss campaign too - but I'm sure you'll get back on track soon. xx

  2. I feel your pain. I am finding work makes me increasingly miserable and yet I am also fearful of change. The issue for me is I just don't know what else I would do. It's tricky huh? I'm constantly telling M if work makes him so unhappy he should find something else, yet I don't listen to my own advice. No pearls of wisdom from me, but I can sympathise x

  3. Thanks guys. I know I'm having a bit of a pity party but sympathy is always nice. :-)

  4. It's so hard. Seems that the more interesting the job, the worse the pay. In truth I do not know anyone who wouldn't jack it in if they won the lottery.

  5. So ummmm... you're coming to Scotland?! Where about? Maybe we could meet up if you fancied it...