Greetings, friends! My, but this little corner of the internet has been a bit quiet lately, hasn't it? I wish I had a good excuse for you - I've got more stuff to put up from Barcelona, and a couple of real little London gems from last weekend but the truth is...well, I've had a bit of the ennui.
I think....no, I pretty much know that this is work related. I try to be suitably vague about my job on here because a) it is quite horrendously dull and b) I am ever so slightly paranoid (someone in our building got sacked on the spot for making a comment about the department on Twitter while in the office). So excuse me for not providing details. Suffice to say, I am conscious of how lucky I am to not only be employed but also reasonably well remunerated but oh, it grinds me down. It is just not really the right job for me. And when you spend two thirds of your life doing something that doesn't make you particularly happy then it impacts on the remaining third - in my case, misery makes me rather inert.
So, why not pack it in and do something else? Well, the main reason is that I have The Fear: I don't want to be unemployed and I don't really want to take a significant pay cut unless it is for a very good reason. I also don't honestly know what the right job is. I have ideas and inklings but no stone cold certainty. I'm not desperately motivated by money - I just want something that makes me excited to get out of bed in the morning. Am I expecting too much? Do the majority of people just drag themselves through the daily grind and then concentrate on making sure that their leisure time makes up for the drudgery of the office? That doesn't sound like the right way to live to me.
Anyway, I've been having a bit of a sulk and that is why I haven't been a particularly good blogger in recent weeks and is also probably why my WW campaign has stalled a bit. We are going to Scotland for ten days next week so my impetus to get going again is rather low - but hopefully a break will be just what I need to clear my head, gain a bit of perspective and boost my mojo.